29 Hours

So NKOTB announced their 5th Sail. NKOTB Cruise 2013.

My beloved husband had already given me the go ahead because he's always so awesome. I've done a little research about the prices of the cabins and such and have prospective room mates. I've even checked on the air tickets that would take me from Singapore to Miami. The only thing that burns my ass is the fact that the air fare is so damn steep in price! I am certain if I shop around a bit more, I probably can find a pretty decent airline and air fare.

I have about 29 hours left before making a final decision and get on that computer to book my NKOTB Cruise when sale begins for the Block Nation members.

29 hours to come up with the logistics and money I will have to spend, etc. 29 hours to make up my mind.

Logistics would mean I will have to plan my leave from work and have my husband take time off as well so he's able to stay home and watch the kids.

Expenses would include:

Cruise - between USD$699 and USD $800

(I don't need the special cabin or suite because I only need it so rest for a couple hours before waking up again to continue partying)

Spending money for alcohol and shopping - USD $1000 at least

(Come on. Food and fountain drinks are included in the Cruise fare but I will not be partying without alcohol!!)

Air fare - USD $2,300

That's a whopping total of an estimated USD $4,000!! That's just for me alone!!

That's a lot of money when I'm thinking; with that amount I could take my whole family for another vacation in South East Asia and this is where my 'mummy guilt' is setting in.

I've heard awesome stories about the cruise and I've heard horror stories. I'd really like to experience it for myself before making any judgement. However, what if the horror stories are for real and all the drama is true? I hate drama. I don't want to waste my money to go on a ship and put up with this kind of bullshit. What are my chances of really interacting with the 5 guys? I'm not a pushy person so meaning I'm going to lose out to the other 3000 ladies onboard.

It's been 104 days since I met the boys for the first time in Jakarta. Well I have met Jordan before but it's my first time seeing the boys together. I did an Ultimate. For the non-NKOTB fans, Ultimate is a special package where you get to meet the boys alone...just you and the boys instead of a group of 10 girls with the boys.

And it's been 102 days since I saw the boys in Manila!! I did another Ultimate but this time it was a little more meaningful because I got to share the experience with my mum.

Nevertheless, what I'm trying to say is that it's been over 100 days since I had the experience of a lifetime meeting the guys yet the memory is still so fresh in my head. The urge of wanting to do it all over again is so great!! Thus I'm thinking if I should make a new memory and try a new experience even if it doesn't guarantee me alone time with the guys? Or should I just be patient and wait for another tour and shoot for another Ultimate alone time with the boys?

I hate decisions. Wish I could just do both! I'm sure my husband would let me but again, it will all boil down to my 'mummy guilt'.

So I sign off with this thought; Cruise vs. Ultimate Concert

1. Party for 4 days with the boys oppose to 2.5 hours

2. 40% chance of alone time with the boys oppose to 100% chance of alone time

Well Debra, you have about 28 hours to decide.

Bonding Time

So lately I feel like I have got the need to head to a store and ask if it's possible for me to buy "A Life"? Apparently it is something I'm desperately in need of...

I may have just taken on a bit too much on my plate but I'm surviving. It's a love hate relationship if you asked me. I love what I do. I love everything about my work, being a mum and now a council member of The Singapore Association of Magicians. However, at times I do feel like quitting because I get so tired and hardly have any time for myself.

I've been doing well though and I am finally starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. People ate beginning to hear of my company and I think we are finally starting to go places.

Just last Friday, my husband sent me a message on Skype. He said, "You should feel good about your accomplishments dear. you're doing very well." Though I know he is always encouraging and proud of me, this still took me by surprise. Hard to imagine that just a simple sentence like that and I am over the moon. And this is coming from the man I've married for over 12 years now!! Isn't he just wonderful?

Nevertheless back to the subject line of this blog post....

As most of my family and friends would know, I recently joined The Singapore Association of Magicians. I have been voted in to the council because of my knowledge of events and some social media skills I've picked up the last 2 years. I've attended 3 meetings since I've joined and I'm proud to say I am accomplishing quite a bit and the current council members seem pleased with what I have done so far.

They had wanted to vote me as Secretary since ours had handed in her resignation but I've just got too much on my plate right now. I'll probably agree to it at the next AGM though.

But speaking of bonding time...my dad being the President of the association and me a council member, he and I have had the most father and daughter bonding time since forever ago.

As most know, my father and I never saw eye to eye and he always favoured my brothers more. But I suppose it's never too late to start the bonding now.

There's still the tension between him and I when we are out together. But I can see he is trying. I am guessing he is also finally realizing how he can depend on me. It's nice to hear him often praise me and all I've done and for him to have so much faith and confidence in me. It's a nice feeling. A feeling I never got to feed of him before...but it sure is a feeling I could get used to.