Give me the ULTIMATE please

Where do I begin?

It all started Nov 27 when I heard NKOTB was going to perform in Australia! My heart started racing and as always, my supportive husband told me that I should go as it's been my life long dream. Of course, I wanted to go but I also had second thoughts because I couldn't see myself spending so much money on just me alone. It already would cost a fortune for the concert VIP tickets, let alone air fare and hotel and spending money. I continued to pray that NKOTB would announce their Asia tour as Jordan had mentioned in an earlier interview but what if there wasn't an Asia tour? I would completely miss this opportunity! So I decided to go ahead and purchase the ticket for Australia anyway and go from there.

I broke open my NKOTB piggy bank which I had started and in the last 4 months or so, I had been putting my loose change in there. Broke it open and it had $117 in it.

Anyway, I finally get online to purchase the VIP tickets for Australia and I select the 5* where I get to meet the guys in groups of 10 because the Ultimate packages (be with the guys alone) were all sold out. Well, I thought beggars cannot be choosers so I select the 5* and proceed on to the next step and that was where I got stuck. Apparently, VIP Nation didn't have the option for people in Singapore to purchase the tickets!! However, if you were from Malaysia or Indonesia or Korea, you can! What the hell is up with that? I mean I could use my Malaysia office address but I took it as a sign from the Gods above. I left the website disappointed but it's ok I guess. I was a little reluctant of spending a total of about 2.5k (tickets, plane fare, hotel, etc) on myself alone.

Now the most I could do is pray that NKOTB do announce an Asia tour. Even if it isn't Singapore, it won't cost me much to travel to any part in Asia.

Then on the 10th of December, Jordan Knight starts tweeting about a special announcement he is going to make in a few days.... I start to think maybe he is finally going to announce the Asia tour. So I excitedly waited for his announcement.

December 12th, he finally makes his announcement and it wasn't an Asia tour! So there I was, disappointed again. But I still kept my spirits high and not forgetting hopes too.

That same day, I take my kids to the mall and they had wish balls. It's white beach balls where people could write their wishes on and hundreds of these will be tossed into the river. After the New Year, they will clear the river of these balls. They have been doing this for the past 4 years since we've been back to Singapore. My kids enjoy drawing and writing on the balls and this year would be the first year I wrote on one. I wished NKOTB would tour Asia.

On the morning of December 16th, I wake up and do my usual stuff...got on Facebook to check my messages and notifications. I see a friend of mine had posted on my timeline...something about NKOTB. Not being fully awake yet, I thought I was dreaming when I read what she wrote, " Babe, NKOTB is going to Jakarta Indonesia ... Go go go!!"

I had to read it a few times before it hit me...and to confirm this, I got on to Twitter and NKOTB.com! And she was right! My wish and dream had come true! I could feel my excitement level hitting the roof, I was all smiles and shaking!! I was screaming!! My kids ran in to my room to ask if I was alright. I called my husband who was so happy for me and asked me to buy the tickets!!

I wish they would have come to Singapore but beggars cannot be choosers. Indonesia is still in Asia and Asia was what I wished for! Good part about all this is that my company has an office in Jakarta!

They finally announced that tickets will go in sale on the 20th which is today actually. From the 16th to today, I've been researching and learning more about the different packages and cost and I also upgraded my NKOTB membership to the full service so I'd get first priority ticket booking.

As the days drew closer, I learned a lot and made lots of friends who we call BH Sisters. Most were from Indonesia and some from Malaysia and Manila. We all shared something in common...the fact that we were so excited NKOTB would be performing in Asia again after almost 20 years!!

I made up my mind! Finally I get to fulfill my dream after 20 years so why not go for the best. I aimed for the top package which they call the Ultimate. Meaning I get to go for the meet and greet alone....backstage for 10 minutes of more with the 5 guys and ME alone!! Not to mention reserved front row seats! Of course the 5*is the next package down but that you will have to share the 10 minutes with 9 other fans! Nope!! I'm selfish and want them all to myself!! My supportive husband even told me I should go for the Ultimate! Yes I was aiming for the Ultimate but was also nervous I wouldn't get it as anything can happen while you're trying to purchase the tickets online.

The fact that the Australia tour didn't allow people from Singapore to purchase tickets also played a major nerve wreck for me. But I've been pestering the ticketing people and an hour before tickets went on sale, they assured the have updated their system and Singaporeans (probably only me) will be able to purchase the tickets.

Today, December 20, I woke up bright and early and got online and waited. Finally it was time!! I was anxious, excited and nervous. I was shaking as my hand held the mouse and my other hand was on the keyboard. I refreshed the page and logged in and keyed in my password for the Full members. Still shaking, I clicked on the Ultimate package and went through the process. Thankfully, Singapore was on the list and I breezed through the check out, all the while praying my Internet won't go down or have the server be jammed.

Finally the official receipt was on my screen staring at me. I couldn't believe it!! I did it!! I got it!! I got the Ultimate package and I was finally going to fulfill my life long dream of meeting all 5 guys!!! I was screaming!! My daughter was especially thrilled for me. I called my husband to tell him I got it. I told the whole world via Twitter and Facebook!! I was still shaking but this time more so floating. I was on cloud 9! Nothing else could ruin my day!!

This is my hubby's gift to me for my 33rd birthday which is only 3 days after I meet NKOTB!

Then I heard the Ultimate tickets were all sold out within 15 minutes!! Oh my goodness! I'm glad I upgraded my membership!!

My BH sisters in USA were thrilled for me. They kept asking what I was going to do with the 5 guys since I had them all to myself?? Oh goodness!! Hearing so many of them say and ask that and tossed me more into reality!! It is going to happen!!! In just 6 months!!

I've never been very out-going. I'm mostly shy...so what am I really going to do or say when I meet them?? I know it'll be alright because when I met Jordan in 2007, we spoke like we knew each other well. But wow!!! I can't imagine what it's going to be like I'm June!! And front row seats?? I hope I don't faint!

First things first...beginning January 1st 2012, after the festive season and all the eating, I am going to go on a diet!! I'm going to lose some weight and buy a pretty little outfit for when I meet the boys!!

My husband decided we'd make it a family trip. So him and my kids will fly up to Indonesia with me and while I'm fulfilling my dreams with NKOTB, they will occupy themselves and be there to share my joy when I return. And we will make a vacation out of it after that.

I'm excited and I've started counting down the days.

Looks like 2012 is going to be a good good year after all. And if they announce a tour in Singapore, you bet your ass I'll go to that one too!!

Oh! And I made this video which is so much how I feel right now!!

Never again... not for a while anyway

Wait till you hear what I did today...

But lets start with my godma visiting me this morning. So my godmother came by about 10.30am and visited with me for about half hour. It was nice. I really love my family on my mother’s side that is. Since I was a child, I’ve always been spoilt by them...I dare say even till today! And I love it!

After my godmother left, my mum took the kids out to Parkway for Children’s Day. Ed and I? Well, I wanted to get out of the house. Was getting pretty sick of staring at the four walls. So, Ed took me for a walk. We went out to grab some lunch. I think I was being over adventurous and should have just started out ‘crutching’ to the playground but I did twice the distance and went to the coffee shop!! What should have taken only an hour, turned out to be a 2 hour outing. Boy was I sore after getting home!!!

So needless to say, the rest of the day I spent at home. I was too sore to even walk about on the crutches at home. I just flopped between my bed and my computer, and the toilet if needed!!

Well, I won’t try this walk a mile with this crutch shit again!

I am getting tired of this shit. I am such an independent woman that I feel totally helpless and useless now. It is frustrating and depressing.

It’s frustrating

It’s really frustrating to feel so useless. I am simply unable to do anything for myself. But I guess I really should be thankful for having a supportive mum and husband and kids...not to mention friends.

This was what my boss told me on FB today...”don’t kick my husband so hard next time” … haha funny.


Oh! And this afternoon, my husband and kids go down to the shop to get some stuff for the house and they come home with a cat! He’s cute though. He is the new member to our family...he is on trial for now...if I don’t develop allergies or an asthma attack, if he doesn't scratch our furniture…he stays.

Thank goodness

Eddie came to the hospital at 6.30am this morning to accompany me and I realized his shirt colour matched my hospital PJs. Haha. A simple coincidence. That wasn’t the only thing, he said he woke up at 5.20am this morning and wondered if I was awake…and I was!! Told him we were like Vincent and Catherine with the ‘bond’ from Beauty and the Beast.


After the docs did their rounds, and talked to me at 7.30am, Ed then pushed me in a wheelchair and took me down for some breakfast. Never thought I’d roll in a wheelchair but this time I didn't have a choice. I also have not eaten a thing in 34 hours! I am finally feeling hungry and not sick to my stomach.


So we ate and went back up to my room and breakfast was waiting. Glad I ate something at the cafe because this hospital macaroni sucked!


After they took out the IV at about 10am and by the way, what a nightmare that was. As the dumb ass nurse pulled out the IV, I was squirting blood all over! Took a while before it stopped.

Then they gave me my crutches and boot....I was ready to leave right there and then! So with Ed’s help, I got dressed in my leaving clothes…to be more specific, in my Jordan Knight Stingy shirt…Tried to give the nurses the hint that I was ready and wanted to be discharged early.



So I finally get home at 1pm. Nice to sleep on my own comfy bed.

Lani gives me a menu for the handicap that she made. Stuff she is able to cook for me and I can order it from her at any time. Hehe...and she even gave me an NKOTB manicure!! She sure is pampering me. Eddie had to attend a course but thankfully my mum was home with me. I slept most of the afternoon away anyways.



Just as I dozed off at 9pm, the door bell rang so my hubby got the door. Flowers from my family at the office! How sweet! Really I am touched.

This is it!

There's no turning back. This is it! The big day. The day I've been waiting for (kind of)....the day I finally get my foot fixed!

So I woke up at 8am. Kissed mum and Logan goodbye and headed to Changi Hospital with Ed. Got myself checked in and like that, I had to kiss Ed and go in to prepare for surgery. I was cold, and scared (some kind of tough girl I am eh?).

Changed into the surgery gown, took my pressure and temp, and sat there and waited. Finally, 10.30am, it's my turn. I walked down the corridor with the nurse...I get on the bed and lie flat while they push me into the operating theatre. There I lay for a good hour before it was my turn. IV was put in, oxygen mask on my face and as I took deep breaths,...that was the last I remembered being in there....

I finally wake up to the nurse telling me it was over. I start to feel the numbness and throbbing in my foot. They push me back to my ward/room and not too long after I saw Ed and boy was I relieved.

I was still out of it.....and about an hour after, my mum and the kids came by. I was so happy to see them. Felt really sick from the GA so I napped while Ed, mum and the kids went to grab a bite. I wasn't even hungry after almost 24 hours!!



The three pics below shows a tired Ed who waited at the hospital with me for 12 hours straight, even while I was in the operating theatre. See the photo of my foot where they marked an arrow so they sliced open the right foot. And some comfort food Ed bought me after the op that I still couldn't eat.


My mum and the kids left early as the kids were tired. Ed left at about 8.30pm so I could get some sleep.

So what sort of surgery did I have done to my foot?

I got a Chevron osteotomy (Distal) which is indicated for correction of a mild to moderate hallux valgus (Bunion) deformity. This allows for a small reduction of the angle between the first and second metatarsal. It is ideal for bunions that are not particularly pronounced.

The procedure involves a V-shaped cut in the distal aspect of the first metatarsal near the metatarsal head. This allows the distal aspect of the bone to be translated between 45 mm in the lateral direction. The cut bone is then fixed in this position with a small screw or a suture of some sort. The excess bone on the inside of the foot (medial side) is then reseated. The joint capsule is also tightened to allow for correction of the bunion.

Patients undergoing a chevron osteotomy are often allowed to walk as long as they are in a stiff soled shoe and they mostly walk with weight through their heel. They do need to limit their activity in the postoperative period, as excessive activity can lead to a nonunion or a malunion. Patients can usually be advanced to a more normal shoe at 6 weeks. However, it will often be 3-4 months before they have made 80% of their recovery and often 9-12 months before their maximal recovery is achieved. Patients recovering from a chevron osteotomy (or other foot surgeries) can have persistent swelling. This can carry on for number of months following surgery. This is due to increased blood flow as part of the healing process.

The Eve of my surgery

Yes I'm pretty damn nervous about the surgery tomorrow but I'm also trying to stay calm and enjoy the weekend with Ed and the kids.

So I finally wore my Jordan Knight's STINGY shirt out today. I am guilty of not washing it but chances are that Jordan actually touched it so I'm going to wear it and wash it after. Get some of his DNA first. Haha. I sound like a teenager!

Something else I heard today,...while I was on NKOTB.com, I read a blog mentioning that they might tour Asia next year!! OMG I pray this is true!!

Better start saving up.

Children's day

So today is Children's Day or so I thought. Well, it's always been since I was a little girl and all of a sudden, they decide to change the date. I find it ridiculous! Give me a real good reason why the date has to be changed?

Whatever it is, the kids and us celebrated it today anyway.

Our first stop was Dunkin Donuts at ION Orchard. Then off to Daiso and Muji. Can you believe it? They are already selling Christmas stuff!! The kids were thrilled because they got to toss in a lot of items in to the basket at Daiso. And after, we took them to Cocoa Tree and bought them a big bag of Reese's Pieces Peanut Butter Cups.


And it was off to Swensen's for ice-cream buffet after!!! Kids had a great time and were high on sugar.